These are the stairs in my house (AKA death trap) every person in our family as fallen down these stairs, some more then twice. the door on the left is the boys room, and the door on the right is the mud room.

Christmas Day

Family Pictures

This is the kids club house in the side yard.

This is my favorite room in the house.

This is the front of our home. I will have pictures of the inside soon.

Monique and Maddy two peas in a pod.



The boys have been having a very hard time going to sleep at night. We told them that if they didn't go to bed they would have to sleep out side. We thought that they would hate it with it being cold and all. They got in their sleeping bags and had the idea to sled down the hill in them. Crazy kids. They where having to much fun so we made them come inside.

I got the kids off to school today and sent them out the door to a very cold morning. About 10 am, it started to snow and didn’t stop untill about 6 pm. When the kids got home from school they where so excited. We all went outside to play in the snow untill six. The kids where freezing cold so we had to come inside. Wile the kids were at school, I got alot done dishes, laundry, bedrooms, well the house. I had a bit of a rough morning and couldn’t get my mind off the negative things. I know I had to get my home in order to feel better about things, it helped. I love having a clean house. I am emotionally attached to my environment. I need to have things in order to feel good. I have always been that way. I tend to get in a funk every now and then, if I am not careful it can consume every thought. I have found the best thing for me to do is to get out, to do a project at my house and if being in my house is too much to go to a friend’s house to do a project anything other then wallowing in my own thoughts. I am not sad about being in Missouri. I will start thinking about my kids and all the things I want for them or to give them and I can’t. I think about my potential and then I start to think about all the thing I have started and then quit. I think about all the things I could be doing and am not. I think about my recent weight gain and what I am not doing. I don’t know why but I feel like I am always waiting for something to happen, something good that will relieve me of all my worries. I know that sounds nuts. Today I am done waiting for things to change, for the weather to be better, for my kids to be the right age, for the house to be clean, for me to feel better. I have been a passenger in my own life only make decisions that are easy and that I am not scared to make. I am not who I could be, I know I am so much better then I have allowed my self to be. I guess this is my new year’s resolution to be more in every aspect of my life. It’s not about being perfect it’s about be productive in achieving my goals and being the kind of wife, mother, friend, family member that I can be, its about evolving into a person that is happy with every aspect of my life. Well there’s look into my psychie for ya.

This is one of my very good friends, Sarah with her family. Many of you don't know this but she saved Brett's life when he was 4 years old. She has been a great friend to me and has been there when ever I have needed her. I can always count on her for any thing, and hope I can be as good as a friend to her as she has been to me. I found her Family picture and thought it was so cute and wanted to share.

David, my five year old, has said some funny things this last week. David was trying to get my attention when I was in the middle of helping Brett with his home work. He was being so inpatient and pulling at me, so I said “David hold on”. His replay was “Mom, what am I suppose to hold on to?" I don’t have any thing.” (LOL)Some times he will take forever to say a sentence and so I told him “just spit it out” so he spit, opened his mouth wide as he said “Mom, look there’s nothing in there. What do you want me to spit out?” He has also been on the “If you love it then why don’t you marry it” phase, he will go around asking every one what do you love? I all ways say I love David. The first time he said why don’t you marry me then and I said I can’t marry you, I married you dad. He was so embarrassed, so now he will say what do you love, but not me.